The Terrifying Toad

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

Philippians 4:13

It’s baby toad season here at my GPS location. Dozens of them have taken over the yard: hopping around when I water the flowers, jumping unexpectedly into the house through an open door. I see them every evening.

The other day, my wife and I stopped by a local nursery to purchase some plants. Right next to the cash register, there was this larger than life concrete toad. Yes, we took him home. “Felix” now lives in the rock garden next to our barbeque area.

Check out the lower left corner. That’s a REAL one!

The only problem is, everytime I come out the back door with something for the grill, he startles me just a bit. Actually, it’s a little creepy–the way he looks at me with those stone cold eyes…

Self-doubt. It can take over your life-yard in a hurry: hopping around when you want to accomplish something, jumping through an open door unexpectedly. It shows up mostly in the evening.

It’s hard to be confident when you’re discouraged, because things you knew for certain five minutes ago disappear behind a smoke screen of timidity. What’s one to do with such feelings? Here are three of my favorite action plans. Yes, I’m an actual satisfied customer who used them all today!

Lower the Stakes

For some reason, when I get down, I act like a high stakes Vegas gambler–going all-in on one roll of the dice. #badidea The truth is, unless you drink poison, a single mistake won’t usually kill you.

We don’t live or die on one success or failure.

Jack Lemon

Break the Circuit

The worst part about self-doubt is the SELF part. Gazing at one’s own navel for a protracted period of time imparts a rather myopic perspective. “It’s not ALL about YOU, cupcake, so stop obsessing.” (That last statement was me talking to myself, but feel free to associate).

I’m just afraid I might have to stop talking about myself for five minutes.

Kinky Friedman

Resign as Manager of the Universe

There’s only one God, and you and I are not Him. Therefore, seeking help from a higher power actually makes sense. After my mom died from a lengthy battle with pancreatic cancer, I ended up with her favorite Bible. I found the following scripture, in her own handwriting, inside:

Self-doubt is often just a silly lawn ornament.

https://davidsdailydose.org/2019/07/03/the-terrifying-toad/

Telling Ourselves the Truth

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Behold, You desire truth in the inward parts, and in the hidden part You will make me to know wisdom

Psalm 51:6

The brawny woman behind the ice cream counter slammed the scoop into a tub of butter brickle so hard it rattled the glass. Clearly discontented, she never looked up at my teenage brother and me–not even to hand us our double-dip cones.
That’s when my older sibling, rarely hesitant, asked the most daring question:

Maam, do you enjoy your job?

My brave brother

THAT got her attention! The ice cream lady looked up, glaring at my brother like a roller derby queen about to pounce. For a second, I thought she would jump over the counter and start wailing on him with that scoop. But almost as quickly as it came, her penetrating stare softened into a heedful gaze. Even an eight year old me could see the wheels turning; it was an aha moment.

“No, I don’t like my job,” the woman said with growing resolution. “I used to be a truck driver, trucking is what I really want to do.”

Ice Cream Lady

That was it. We paid for our ice cream and took a seat. But, clearly, the would be truck driver experienced a catharsis. Prompted by my brother’s question, she told herself the truth.

Good questions. God likes to ask them too.

I looked it up, the first question God asks is in Genesis chapter three. Adam and Eve have just eaten the forbidden fruit and hide when they hear God out for a walk. But God calls out to Adam,

“Where are you?”

Genesis 3:9

God knew the answer, of course–He always does–but he could have said, “What have you done?” Thankfully, He is more concerned Father than pitiless inquisitor (2 Peter 3:9). He just wants us to come back.

Today, may both you and I tell ourselves the truth–whatever it is.

Speak the truth and see what happens.

Dr. Jordan Peterson

https://davidsdailydose.org/2019/06/23/telling-ourselves-the-truth/

YRUMAD?

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Then the Lord said to Cain, “Why are you angry? Why is your face downcast? If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at the door; it desires to have you, but you must master it.”

Genesis 4: 6-7

My brother has the coolest personalized license plate, it says, YRUMAD?.

I’ve never asked him to explain, but I suppose he wants passing motorists to think about what drives their lives.

However, everytime I see it I get defensive, “I’m NOT mad!” But a simple glance into my inner psyche reveals destructive emotions aplenty, they’re just catching a few z’s. Come to think of it, I often AM a little mad, anxious, or worried; maybe I should find out why.

Anger is never without a reason, but seldom with a good one.

Benjamin Franklin

Take the tale of two brothers, as told in Genesis. Cain was enraged because God rejected his offering, but accepted his brother’s. While the older brother sulks, God pays him a visit and tries to talk some sense into him.

Son, if you were a professional you’d be on television. Now get back out there and try again! You’d better snap out of this, or there will be hell to pay.

My version of what God told Cain, based on what my dad once said to me in a similar situation.

Cain made the wrong choice, he murdered his brother and was a wandering fugitive for the rest of his life.

Let’s not be like that–especially after God tries to talk some sense into us.

YRUMAD?

https://davidsdailydose.org/2019/06/22/yrumad/